Chaos

Chaos

Today, the words don’t come to me easily. I strain to find a few that I know how to string together.

This morning my thoughts are scattered in bits and pieces on the floor.

I wish I was the ‘yesterday me’. The yesterday version of myself felt so put together. I was the ‘take-it-as-it comes girl’, the ‘I know who I am’ girl. I was the confident girl who looked in the mirror and said I GOT THIS. Because I did.

Today appears the ‘I’m fine’ girl, the quiet girl who is in indescribable pain but will hide that behind a smile today, and keep going. She is fine. She’s always fine.

Some days are easy, uncomplicated.

Some days I strain to open my eyes, and I wait for the weight of the world to bear down upon me as soon as my feet hit the floor. Because it will. And it does.

And it did.

And I keep going.

Today the words don’t come to me easily. I yawn, stretch, and I step over my feelings that are in bits and pieces on the floor. I think I will leave them there today.

Jolene

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